Okay Well Here's The Thing

Earlier today I wrote out my thoughts 

They've been scattered lately, and it helps a lot to at least write them out. 

After I wrote it out, it felt really good and relieving. And then I thought about what you all will think of it. 

THEN I remembered what my piano teacher told me awhile back. 

He said that when he was in college, his professor asked him whether or not he would still play piano even if nobody liked how he played.

My teacher said that he would still play.  

Because he loved it.  

And that's all that really matters. 

So, I figure that I love to write, and even if none of you enjoy this post, 

I'll keep writing, because if I base my life and actions only on what people think of me, 

I won't be happy. 

So here are my recent thoughts:

Some days you don't think you can fit all the things you want to do in one day and other days you feel that there is nothing to do at all. 

Today was one of those days. 

I've realized lately (especially today) that in the past, I've always wanted to please others, one reason being that I probably (sorry to say) want everyone to like me, 

BUT 

the other reason being that I really do want to be kind.

I think that everyone should be helpful because they sincerely want to be. 

When thinking about the first reason though,
I think that when I was younger especially, I perhaps wanted to be apart of it all and "fit in". 



Yet at the same time, 
I don't actually want to be exactly like everyone else.

I'm glad that I'm my own person.

I like being me. 

And you should like being you. 


Anyway, I don't want to have to worry if my opinion on matters are different than others. 

It's okay to have a different outlook on things than others. 

When going back to the good reason of pleasing others, I have to remember that pleasing God is more important than pleasing people, but we should still put in effort to be kind and selfless and patient in our lives. 

I really do want to be selfless and encourage others, and while I, like everyone else has flaws, I have to remember that I can't be perfect. 

Sometimes, when I "mess up",

I feel disappointed in myself ,

which is pretty stupid. 

Everyone makes mistakes. Nobody is perfect.

I should strive to become a better, more wholesome and clean person day by day with God's help.

I also should stop looking at my past mistakes and let go of things or people that hurt me, 

because it's a waste of time to dwell on that. 

You and I are better that.



As a side note, don't let others make you feel bad about yourself. 

Blow it off and,

Keep moving forward.




I hope I helped.