Long Time No...

...blog! LOLZ

Well hello there!!! 

Long time no blog! 

There is honestly so much that has happened this year- idk if I can even spit it all out lol

Let's see-- the last time I blogged was when I was in my last semester of college- that was when I didn't know if I was going to pass my stupid finance class. 

Well look-y here! I got a B- so BEAT THAT. 

I mean, you would beat that with an A, but that is NOT the point. 

I am very proud of myself lol 

ANYWHO- 

I don't usually put personal information on this blog, but honestly, I think it's fine. 

SO- I graduated college this past May. :O COLLEGE. I. FINISHED. COLLEGE. 

WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?

Still hard to believe honestly. CRAY CRAY. 

Well- 'tis December right now and it's still hard to believe. 

I want to go back to March 2019 and remember that I was so worried about getting a job right after I graduated. SO worried. But with the right research and connections- I got a jobbbbb! :) In the beginning of July! 

AND- literally in September 2018- I got this email about a specific internship that looked really interesting, but a few minutes after I got that email, it said it was sent to me by mistake lol which it technically was (and I knew that), but I honestly think that God let it happen on purpose. 

The internship really interested me, and I always kept it in the back of my mind. 

(I know I'm all over the place- but what else is new? And who cares cause- this is my space to write lol) 

LETTUCE continue: 

I ended up getting a job for a nice company and that same internship I read about a year ago was part of that company- on top of that, the managers there brought up that I should apply for the internship at my interview!!! 

SO ANYWAYS- 

fast forward----- I got the job (Thank God) and also applied for the internship. 

I wasn't sure if I would like the internship or not- I was also a little scared to get the internship because of big responsibilities attached to it- but I did it anyway! 

1st interview- done 

2nd interview- passed 

3rd interview- got em' :D 

I was shoooook lol 

I got the internship folks!! And it starts in February! I'm actually at a coffee shop right now trying to prepare for it! 

9 months ago I had no idea what I would be doing for a job, where I would be working, and honestly thinking that it was too late for an internship- WELL HERE WE ARE FOLKS- working for a big company (although starting small- gotta start somewhere :D) and about to start an award-winning internship!!! 

I actually prayed a lot about this internship- and I honestly think that God wants me to do it- to get out of my comfort zone and become a leader. :D 

My prayer was something like: Jesus, if you want me to get this internship, let it happen- either way is fine with me. 

I have to do that more often in my life- trusting God to choose the best path for me. 

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Since we're still here- let me update ya'll on my life in general. 

My sister and her boyfriend broke up. 

One of my best friends isn't really my best friend anymore- but I think I'm okay with that. No hard feelings, but I think I focused more on her life than mine. I felt like she was the main character in a show and I was her side character friend lol 

BUT I want to be the main character in my own life for PETE'S SAKE. 

Let's see, what else happened this year lol 

I met a lot of great people at work! :) 

My brother finally got his license. lol Yay!! 

Hmm what else- 

OH I got my doubles pierced- I've always wanted to and I finally did it a few days ago lolol my mom's gonna be so mad- but it's okay, she'll get over it :P 

I still haven't found my special someone yet- LOL but it's okay. 

I feel like I have always struggled with that and connected it to my worth- 

"Oh, you haven't had a boyfriend yet???" People are shooketh when I tell them. 

But I hope to overcome that in the near future. 

Also my friend Ivs- you know who you are hehe- has helped me with my self-love in regards to body image. I'm still working on it, but this one thing she sent me that was encouraging was that your "trouble areas" on your body do not define you as a whole. They aren't what make you you. It is your insides- your soul- your heart- that makes you. 

Another thing that was mentioned in that article was to write down 10 things that you like about yourself- that aren't physical features. I feel like I put myself down a lot, but I really want to try and think good things about myself instead of focusing on the bad. 

SO 

Here are 10 things I like about myself eeeeeek: 

1. I am kind to people 

2. I believe in justice and standing up for people

3. I think I'm funny lol 

4. I love to make people laugh

5. I love to make people feel comfortable, at home, and important

6. I am a hard worker 

7. I try to please God in my life 

8. I love that I can sing and play piano (even tho I haven't in a while) 

-- I feel like I need to look up a list of "things you like about yourself" to inspire me lol 

9. I am loyal

10. I am trustworthy

11. I am helpful

12. I am brave

13. I am courageous 

14. I am hopeful 

15. I am loving

2020 WILL BE THE YEAR THAT I LOVE MYSELF- I REALLY DO WANT TO LOVE MYSELF 

One of my friends at work (B.) told me that I am a lion and a queen and then we came up with the term Lion Queens for each other. 

I want to be a lion queen on the inside, and I want to be able to write a list of things that I like about myself without hesitation. 

Please Jesus help me to love myself and to love you the most. 

OH btw- I'm going to this youth conference in Chicago in February- maybe I'll meet someone there hehe 

or at least have fun with Liki Liki (mi amiga) and listen to good, encouraging talks about Christianity. 

If that's the "At least", then it sounds like a great time either way lol 

I'm gonna try to post more often on here to kinda update myself on my progress. 

DON'T FORGET- 

JESUS LOVES YOUUUUUU

PS I'm reading this book my dad lent me called Win Every Battle by Michael L. Galiga. It's about "conquering fear and claiming victory for success in life". Sounds great so far!! 

PSS If anyone is actually reading this- I hope that I somehow helped you somehow- I think the lesson here is to trust in God and to love Him- and then things will fall into place- 

LOVE YOU~ 

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." <3