Deep Post

Have you ever felt happy yet disappointed at the same time? Like half and half...sad and happy about something. Because that's how I'm feeling now. Happy about the subject...disappointed about the overall situation?? I don't even know what I'm sayingg...ughh..I feel like there's something that I will never be able to grasp, mostly because something else is pulling me away and taking it for itself...hmmm... I think writing this is making me more depressed..eww...why am I feeling like this?? Just be happy and everything will be okay. :) Okay, I already feel better..nice self-pep talk...haha