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Hi folks. 

Idk. 

I'm a little frustrated and discouraged. 

AND since I believe that writing out your thoughts can help you feel better, here goes nothing.

I know this is stupid to think, but sometimes I think that I will never find the right person to be with. 

I've watched a few really great Asian tv shows (call me crazy), but they've shown me what it looks like to truly love someone and in a pure, beautiful way. 

I have this fear that it's too late for me or that it just won't happen. 

I MEAN

Worst case scenario: I get an apartment by myself and get a couple of dogs. 

Actually the actual worst case scenario would be to forever stay in my parent's house lol 

But hopefully my worst case scenario will be the apartment dog thing. 
Then I can have my own space to watch Hallmark movies whenever I want and have dogs to keep me company. 

I meant, it doesn't sound that different from my situation right now. BUT hey 

At least I'll have my own apartment one day!! woot WOOT

Anyway 

hmmmmmmmmm

I don't want to feel sorry for myself, although I'm kinda in the mood lolol 

I know I should trust God, pray for my future husband, and better myself in the meantime, 
(which are all worthwhile things)

I don't know. 

It's just really hard. 

It is reallllllllylylyllyls hard to be single lately. 

And I KNOW I would rather be single than to date someone that is a bozo, 

but what about dating someone amazing?! 

Like the guy in my Asian tv show lolol 

But the thing is, that TV show (called "A Love So Beautiful") IS REALLY SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL. 

The main characters grow up together and eventually fall in love. 

IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL. 


and HONESTLY

It doesn't seem to be that unattainable. 

I mean it's just two people that enjoy each other's company and truly love each other. 

Sounds nice. 

I KNOW I shouldn't complain. 
My life is pretty great. 

But, man oh man. 

IDK 

I just hope that one day, I will look back at this blog post, laugh to myself, and say, 

"Wow! I needed to just chillax! My special guy and I found each other real quick and what we have is WONDERFUL. HECK. IT'S EVEN BETTER THAN THE ASIAN TV SHOW "A LOVE SO BEAUTIFUL." 

LOL 

I am counting on that!!!!

And actually I feel better already. 

REMEMBER GOD ME YOU SPECIAL AND HE LOVES YOU VERY MUCH. <3
LOVE YOU!!!!

Well Hello There!

Hi my peeps! I never say peeps, but I am feeling it today lol 

ANYWAY. 

I was FaceTiming my friend Theodora today, and somehow I brought up my blog. 
I don't remember why, but I am glad that it happened!

It led me to read most of my past posts, and I just want to thank MYSELF for being so encouraging to MYSELF (and to others hopefully). 

Looking back, I was so encouraging. I was 16 years old, and possibly more confident than I am now! 

I think that looking at my old posts reminded me of who I want to be. 

I still want to be a strong Christian young woman that is proud to be my silly self, but lately I have been super lazy. 

I really need to pray more on a deeper level.

AND

I need to be SINCERE in my spiritual life. 

THE THING IS...

God doesn't expect perfection from us, but he wants us to try in life. SO TRY. 

C'mon Observant Girl! You got this! 


"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." :) <3 



ANYWAY 

There are so many new things are going on in my life that I feel I should tell you about. 

I am HOPEFULLY graduating from college in May 2019 woot WOOT. 

With a Business Tourism major! 

Sometimes I do regret not choosing music, art, or design, but at the same time, I can really picture myself working in the hospitality industry God-willing!! 

I still play piano here and there, but I really need to get back on that train (or whatever that phrase is). I haven't painted in a while BUT I am planning on buying some stuff from Michael's le tomorrow. 
lol 

I tried to throw a French spin on that, but it didn't work... or did it muahaha :D 

(I took a semester of French last year. Barely remember anything.) 

Oh! I am in Finance300 this semester and it is a REALLY HARD CLASS 


BUT

I WILL PASS IT IF IT IS THE LAST THING I DO. 


HOPEFULLY, it won't be the last thing I do God-forbid, but yeah. I am determined to pass. 



Hmm...
What else should I tell you about. :) 


WELLLLLL 

I will be 23 in a month, which SCARES ME... a bit. 

I've been struggling lately with trying to figure out how to act. 

You know. 

As an almost 23-year-old. 

BUT What I have to remember is that being silly is great! 

And that being silly is just a part of my personality. SO if you don't like that then you can just leave I guess lol 


This post is so scrambled...just like the eggs that I am craving at the moment. HA I am SO funny. 



I am stressed still and worry too much. But does that ever help? NO. So 


STOP WORRYING SISTA

ENJOY LIFE. 

LIFE IS SO SO GOOD. 

GOD IS GOOD. 

GOD IS LOVE. 

APPRECIATE THINGS MORE. APPRECIATE PEOPLE MORE. APPRECIATE GOD A LOT MORE. APPRECIATE YOURSELF MORE. ooh that's a good one. BUT SERIOUSLY. 


I HAVE BEEN WRITING IN CAPS SO MUCH BUT IT FEEL GOOD YAS. 

Oh

Also, 

I have been struggling with my image lately. I gained a few pounds and got some pimples LOL. 

But I have to realize and remember that I am a CHILD OF GOD. And,

I am beautiful, because I was made in the image of God. 

SO if you reading this, KEEP GOING 

NOBODY IS PERFECT. 

PERHAPS exercise and eat healthier too hahaha 



but honestly, 

just chill. You is doin fineee. 


You're doing great. :) 

BUT DON'T EVER FORGET ABOUT Jesus Christ WHO LOVES YOU AND DIED FOR YOU. 

I don't want to ever leave my Christian faith, but sometimes I am lazy and do not always feel Christ in my heart. But I will put more effort into my spiritual life and try to love Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. 

This might be the most scattered and longest post I've ever written. BUT 

I love this blog, and I am really proud of myself for writing so well in the past and keep the blog up in general. 

SO if anything, I just want to keep writing here, hopefully encouraging you to keep moving forward, and hopefully encouraging myself as well. 


Remember: God made you special and he loves you very much. :) <3