Long Time No...

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Well hello there!!! 

Long time no blog! 

There is honestly so much that has happened this year- idk if I can even spit it all out lol

Let's see-- the last time I blogged was when I was in my last semester of college- that was when I didn't know if I was going to pass my stupid finance class. 

Well look-y here! I got a B- so BEAT THAT. 

I mean, you would beat that with an A, but that is NOT the point. 

I am very proud of myself lol 

ANYWHO- 

I don't usually put personal information on this blog, but honestly, I think it's fine. 

SO- I graduated college this past May. :O COLLEGE. I. FINISHED. COLLEGE. 

WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?

Still hard to believe honestly. CRAY CRAY. 

Well- 'tis December right now and it's still hard to believe. 

I want to go back to March 2019 and remember that I was so worried about getting a job right after I graduated. SO worried. But with the right research and connections- I got a jobbbbb! :) In the beginning of July! 

AND- literally in September 2018- I got this email about a specific internship that looked really interesting, but a few minutes after I got that email, it said it was sent to me by mistake lol which it technically was (and I knew that), but I honestly think that God let it happen on purpose. 

The internship really interested me, and I always kept it in the back of my mind. 

(I know I'm all over the place- but what else is new? And who cares cause- this is my space to write lol) 

LETTUCE continue: 

I ended up getting a job for a nice company and that same internship I read about a year ago was part of that company- on top of that, the managers there brought up that I should apply for the internship at my interview!!! 

SO ANYWAYS- 

fast forward----- I got the job (Thank God) and also applied for the internship. 

I wasn't sure if I would like the internship or not- I was also a little scared to get the internship because of big responsibilities attached to it- but I did it anyway! 

1st interview- done 

2nd interview- passed 

3rd interview- got em' :D 

I was shoooook lol 

I got the internship folks!! And it starts in February! I'm actually at a coffee shop right now trying to prepare for it! 

9 months ago I had no idea what I would be doing for a job, where I would be working, and honestly thinking that it was too late for an internship- WELL HERE WE ARE FOLKS- working for a big company (although starting small- gotta start somewhere :D) and about to start an award-winning internship!!! 

I actually prayed a lot about this internship- and I honestly think that God wants me to do it- to get out of my comfort zone and become a leader. :D 

My prayer was something like: Jesus, if you want me to get this internship, let it happen- either way is fine with me. 

I have to do that more often in my life- trusting God to choose the best path for me. 

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Since we're still here- let me update ya'll on my life in general. 

My sister and her boyfriend broke up. 

One of my best friends isn't really my best friend anymore- but I think I'm okay with that. No hard feelings, but I think I focused more on her life than mine. I felt like she was the main character in a show and I was her side character friend lol 

BUT I want to be the main character in my own life for PETE'S SAKE. 

Let's see, what else happened this year lol 

I met a lot of great people at work! :) 

My brother finally got his license. lol Yay!! 

Hmm what else- 

OH I got my doubles pierced- I've always wanted to and I finally did it a few days ago lolol my mom's gonna be so mad- but it's okay, she'll get over it :P 

I still haven't found my special someone yet- LOL but it's okay. 

I feel like I have always struggled with that and connected it to my worth- 

"Oh, you haven't had a boyfriend yet???" People are shooketh when I tell them. 

But I hope to overcome that in the near future. 

Also my friend Ivs- you know who you are hehe- has helped me with my self-love in regards to body image. I'm still working on it, but this one thing she sent me that was encouraging was that your "trouble areas" on your body do not define you as a whole. They aren't what make you you. It is your insides- your soul- your heart- that makes you. 

Another thing that was mentioned in that article was to write down 10 things that you like about yourself- that aren't physical features. I feel like I put myself down a lot, but I really want to try and think good things about myself instead of focusing on the bad. 

SO 

Here are 10 things I like about myself eeeeeek: 

1. I am kind to people 

2. I believe in justice and standing up for people

3. I think I'm funny lol 

4. I love to make people laugh

5. I love to make people feel comfortable, at home, and important

6. I am a hard worker 

7. I try to please God in my life 

8. I love that I can sing and play piano (even tho I haven't in a while) 

-- I feel like I need to look up a list of "things you like about yourself" to inspire me lol 

9. I am loyal

10. I am trustworthy

11. I am helpful

12. I am brave

13. I am courageous 

14. I am hopeful 

15. I am loving

2020 WILL BE THE YEAR THAT I LOVE MYSELF- I REALLY DO WANT TO LOVE MYSELF 

One of my friends at work (B.) told me that I am a lion and a queen and then we came up with the term Lion Queens for each other. 

I want to be a lion queen on the inside, and I want to be able to write a list of things that I like about myself without hesitation. 

Please Jesus help me to love myself and to love you the most. 

OH btw- I'm going to this youth conference in Chicago in February- maybe I'll meet someone there hehe 

or at least have fun with Liki Liki (mi amiga) and listen to good, encouraging talks about Christianity. 

If that's the "At least", then it sounds like a great time either way lol 

I'm gonna try to post more often on here to kinda update myself on my progress. 

DON'T FORGET- 

JESUS LOVES YOUUUUUU

PS I'm reading this book my dad lent me called Win Every Battle by Michael L. Galiga. It's about "conquering fear and claiming victory for success in life". Sounds great so far!! 

PSS If anyone is actually reading this- I hope that I somehow helped you somehow- I think the lesson here is to trust in God and to love Him- and then things will fall into place- 

LOVE YOU~ 

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." <3 

Heyoooo

So, Hi again!

I am struggling. I know that I shouldn't be feeling sorry for myself, but I always feel better after I write on my blog, so here it goes. I don't know where to start. 

God wants us to trust Him, but at the same time, we have to put in some of the work as well. 

"God helps those who help themselves." 

I love that quote. It inspires and encourages me. 

At the same time, I regards to wanting a good, healthy relationship, how do I help myself?

First off, I should pray and work on my own insides, making my inner self beautiful. 

But in regards to actually doing something in the social sense, I am a little bit discouraged. 

Don't get me wrong. 

This past year, I've met sooo many new people and have had a lot of great memories- 

from working at a restaurant and also a retail store to being a camp counselor to going to youth group a lot more often, I've met a lot of people overall and had new experiences! 

But the reason I feel discouraged sometimes is that, whenever I start something new, go somewhere, or just do something social, in the back of my mind-and sometimes in the front of my mind- I wonder, hmmmm maybe I'll meet my future husband today!

Which I think is fine, but it's almost too much BECAUSE a part of me always becomes discouraged when I go somewhere and I don't meet a potential Mr. Wonderful. 

I have been trying to be more present lately, mostly because of this health and wellness class I took that was surprisingly helpful lol 

But yeah, I want to be present in the sense that I do not want to dwell and despair about my past mistakes but I also don't want to constantly be worrying about the future. 

There was a quote that I found on accident on Pinterest- best place ever- but it said "God is not going to forget to put the people in your life that are meant to be there". Wow. 

We all need to trust God more, especially me. 

And we can start by praying more deeply and just trusting Him more and more everyday. 

He has and always will be there for us. Just trust Him. 

C'mon. We got this. 

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Hi folks. 

Idk. 

I'm a little frustrated and discouraged. 

AND since I believe that writing out your thoughts can help you feel better, here goes nothing.

I know this is stupid to think, but sometimes I think that I will never find the right person to be with. 

I've watched a few really great Asian tv shows (call me crazy), but they've shown me what it looks like to truly love someone and in a pure, beautiful way. 

I have this fear that it's too late for me or that it just won't happen. 

I MEAN

Worst case scenario: I get an apartment by myself and get a couple of dogs. 

Actually the actual worst case scenario would be to forever stay in my parent's house lol 

But hopefully my worst case scenario will be the apartment dog thing. 
Then I can have my own space to watch Hallmark movies whenever I want and have dogs to keep me company. 

I meant, it doesn't sound that different from my situation right now. BUT hey 

At least I'll have my own apartment one day!! woot WOOT

Anyway 

hmmmmmmmmm

I don't want to feel sorry for myself, although I'm kinda in the mood lolol 

I know I should trust God, pray for my future husband, and better myself in the meantime, 
(which are all worthwhile things)

I don't know. 

It's just really hard. 

It is reallllllllylylyllyls hard to be single lately. 

And I KNOW I would rather be single than to date someone that is a bozo, 

but what about dating someone amazing?! 

Like the guy in my Asian tv show lolol 

But the thing is, that TV show (called "A Love So Beautiful") IS REALLY SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL. 

The main characters grow up together and eventually fall in love. 

IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL. 


and HONESTLY

It doesn't seem to be that unattainable. 

I mean it's just two people that enjoy each other's company and truly love each other. 

Sounds nice. 

I KNOW I shouldn't complain. 
My life is pretty great. 

But, man oh man. 

IDK 

I just hope that one day, I will look back at this blog post, laugh to myself, and say, 

"Wow! I needed to just chillax! My special guy and I found each other real quick and what we have is WONDERFUL. HECK. IT'S EVEN BETTER THAN THE ASIAN TV SHOW "A LOVE SO BEAUTIFUL." 

LOL 

I am counting on that!!!!

And actually I feel better already. 

REMEMBER GOD ME YOU SPECIAL AND HE LOVES YOU VERY MUCH. <3
LOVE YOU!!!!

Well Hello There!

Hi my peeps! I never say peeps, but I am feeling it today lol 

ANYWAY. 

I was FaceTiming my friend Theodora today, and somehow I brought up my blog. 
I don't remember why, but I am glad that it happened!

It led me to read most of my past posts, and I just want to thank MYSELF for being so encouraging to MYSELF (and to others hopefully). 

Looking back, I was so encouraging. I was 16 years old, and possibly more confident than I am now! 

I think that looking at my old posts reminded me of who I want to be. 

I still want to be a strong Christian young woman that is proud to be my silly self, but lately I have been super lazy. 

I really need to pray more on a deeper level.

AND

I need to be SINCERE in my spiritual life. 

THE THING IS...

God doesn't expect perfection from us, but he wants us to try in life. SO TRY. 

C'mon Observant Girl! You got this! 


"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." :) <3 



ANYWAY 

There are so many new things are going on in my life that I feel I should tell you about. 

I am HOPEFULLY graduating from college in May 2019 woot WOOT. 

With a Business Tourism major! 

Sometimes I do regret not choosing music, art, or design, but at the same time, I can really picture myself working in the hospitality industry God-willing!! 

I still play piano here and there, but I really need to get back on that train (or whatever that phrase is). I haven't painted in a while BUT I am planning on buying some stuff from Michael's le tomorrow. 
lol 

I tried to throw a French spin on that, but it didn't work... or did it muahaha :D 

(I took a semester of French last year. Barely remember anything.) 

Oh! I am in Finance300 this semester and it is a REALLY HARD CLASS 


BUT

I WILL PASS IT IF IT IS THE LAST THING I DO. 


HOPEFULLY, it won't be the last thing I do God-forbid, but yeah. I am determined to pass. 



Hmm...
What else should I tell you about. :) 


WELLLLLL 

I will be 23 in a month, which SCARES ME... a bit. 

I've been struggling lately with trying to figure out how to act. 

You know. 

As an almost 23-year-old. 

BUT What I have to remember is that being silly is great! 

And that being silly is just a part of my personality. SO if you don't like that then you can just leave I guess lol 


This post is so scrambled...just like the eggs that I am craving at the moment. HA I am SO funny. 



I am stressed still and worry too much. But does that ever help? NO. So 


STOP WORRYING SISTA

ENJOY LIFE. 

LIFE IS SO SO GOOD. 

GOD IS GOOD. 

GOD IS LOVE. 

APPRECIATE THINGS MORE. APPRECIATE PEOPLE MORE. APPRECIATE GOD A LOT MORE. APPRECIATE YOURSELF MORE. ooh that's a good one. BUT SERIOUSLY. 


I HAVE BEEN WRITING IN CAPS SO MUCH BUT IT FEEL GOOD YAS. 

Oh

Also, 

I have been struggling with my image lately. I gained a few pounds and got some pimples LOL. 

But I have to realize and remember that I am a CHILD OF GOD. And,

I am beautiful, because I was made in the image of God. 

SO if you reading this, KEEP GOING 

NOBODY IS PERFECT. 

PERHAPS exercise and eat healthier too hahaha 



but honestly, 

just chill. You is doin fineee. 


You're doing great. :) 

BUT DON'T EVER FORGET ABOUT Jesus Christ WHO LOVES YOU AND DIED FOR YOU. 

I don't want to ever leave my Christian faith, but sometimes I am lazy and do not always feel Christ in my heart. But I will put more effort into my spiritual life and try to love Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. 

This might be the most scattered and longest post I've ever written. BUT 

I love this blog, and I am really proud of myself for writing so well in the past and keep the blog up in general. 

SO if anything, I just want to keep writing here, hopefully encouraging you to keep moving forward, and hopefully encouraging myself as well. 


Remember: God made you special and he loves you very much. :) <3