Honestly...

 Sometimes I surprise myself. 

I just read through that most recent post of mine and it touched my heart. 

I hope I become kinder to myself, but I've also been struggling with balancing between standing up for myself but still being kind to others. 

I feel like I'm not as kind anymore. but I can't decide if that's a good thing or not, and it's bothering me. That might prove that I should be kinder lol 

Idk- there are so many people sooo ready to give advice (including myself), and I've recently realized that I shouldn't share my life story with everyone (iron about this blog but no one's on blogger anymore let's be honest this is like a diary for me lol). I've found that I have overshared at times in general but HEY am I perfect? no. Is anyone perfect? nope. so I should be kind to myself but also to others. I should forgive myself, but also others. 

Things to work on. 

I also need to trust God more. 

Lord Jesus Christ, I believe O Lord, help my unbelief. Strengthen my faith. Guide me in the way I should walk. Help me to do my best. Love you. Thank you. 

Anyways. 

Nothing crazy is new... 

Except one thing that I HAD to share. 

I finally... DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!!

Had my first kiss!!!! And it was magical. 

Like seriously. Best first kiss I could have asked for. 

Overlooking the cityscape. 

I'll explain in one day. 

I am going to see said kisser in a month lol 

Honestly I'm a hard-core day dreamer if you haven't already guessed. 

Nothing crazy- just imagining us walking around the city and spending time together. 

I don't know what's actually going to happen, but I'm trying not to worry about it. 

I have a crush that's for sure. 

But life is short, right? 

And some risks are good risks. 

My risks aren't even risky lol 

My risk is to hang out with a guy HA 

I just need to chill and be more present, whether or not I am hanging out with him.

Random but I also sometimes feel super accomplished as office manager and sometimes so not. But hills and valleys are a thing, right? Up and down, Tash. 

Rememberrr: 

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. 

Let's see how these next few months unfold. 

AND Natasha - don't worry about getting your heart broken. 

Just try your best, and remind yourself that no one is perfect except Christ, and He is full of Grace. 

Get up when you fall down silly billy! 

Don't forget to be your silly self. I miss that part of myself. 

Get back to it. 

Love you, 

Tash